How to restart? (Again)

 

Hard to believe it's been nearly 8 months since I last posted, but here we are. COVID year two and still hanging in there. Family is good, nobody has gotten sick, thank the lucky stars.

Me? Ehh. I wish I could say that I'm doing well, but it's day to day. This whole thing is going to leave scars and have lasting effects on many of us, I imagine. I'm no exception. I've have very little motivation to do much of anything, to be honest. I did reignite an interest in whitetail deer hunting. But, this isn't the blog for that, huh?

So what about my many year campaign - Etinerra? 

Behold the smoking pit of failure.

I've kept the play-by-post (on Discord) alive, barely. Very, very slow going. I'm really glad it's still there, that single thread. Grateful to my players who have put up with the stops and starts.

The rest of it? A screeching halt and then silence. I've kept in touch with the players, but as time goes on, I'm sure the connections fade. That makes me sad and I wish I could say that I had a great plan of how to restart the campaign... but I don't.

I feel locked.

At the point that COVID (and my existential stress, then piled on by political stress) hit, I had wargames, three active campaigns and a lot of plates spinning. All that came crashing down. 

Now I look at the thing and I feel dread. How do I pick this back up? How do I do justice to the contributions and fantastic play by my players? 

Rather than be excited, I'm stressed by the thought of failure. 

So... how do I restart? That's the knot I'm wrestling to untie. 

What would you do?